torn

I am always torn back and forth between my wife (whom I do love) and these other women. I honestly cant seem to quit. I have prayed and I have prayed to be normal but for some reason I am just a weak person. I do not want to go to hell and I want to live in heaven but at this rate I just dont think I will make it. I cant stop for some reason. I dont know what it is...

I am very sorry for my sins and to be honest I am ashamed but not sure who to turn to or what to do.

Life is not easy sometimes, I am not blamming anyone but myself but it is hard.

Thanks for listening.

Love/amen
MP