Torn

I have been married for 14 years to a man 11 years older than me and we have 3 kids. I recently reconnected with somone from my past somone that I once loved verry much and still do someone I never really got over, We were dating and I was cheating on him with the person Iam now married to and we have been texting each other daily my X is willing and so am I to have an affair. There is nothing left in my marriage for me anymore, I don't feel loved I rarely get sex and it's not for lack of me trying and I am tired of trying and getting nothing in return. I know my husband would never cheat on me but I also know he won't make divorce easy either.I know I should not go there and act on my desires but evey day leads me more and more to that place, I just need to feel loved even after 15 years. I want someone to still love me enough to wisper in my ear while Im doing dishes you look good today I can't wait to get a hold of you, somone that still gives me a hug when he gets home and says it's nice to see you someone that still kisses me with passion not just a peck on the lips. Maybe I am just want too much maybe Iam looking for something I can never find. Sometimes I feel guilty but most of the time I don't care.